Sunday Sunday.....busy as usual

It's 5:00 already. At least I can say that I got a lot done today. I went to the mall to pay a couple bills and had an awesome coupon for Yankee Candle. It was buy one get one free. Actually it's 3 coupons....buy a large jar candle get one free, buy a medium jar get one free, and buy a small jar and get one free. Can you say AWESOME! I bet you can :-)
I bought a large Home Sweet Home (cinnamon spicy/they say cinnamon, baking spices, hint of freshly poured tea) and got a large Farmer's Market (clove spicy/they say sweet berries, juicy apples, succulent peaches and warm spices) FREE! GO Yankee Candle! LOL! I will go to their website and get the actual scent for both of these.
Then I went to Joanne's Fabric/Craft Store and bought some paper and tape. I went for Valentine's paper and of course came out with a lot more. After that I headed off to Kohls to pay that bill (i'm a bad girl) and then to Fred Meyer to get groceries. Came home and made 17 cards. Oiy....like a said...it's been a busy Sunday!
Check out the comment section from yesterdays blog to see a couple more websites that Bonnie listed where you can view/listen to Lily and her baby black bear.
Too Cute!

Babies Fussing all Sounds the Same :-)

Don't know if you have heard about Lily the Black Bear who recently gave birth on webcam.
My friend Bonnie told me about this site. Go see...or actually listen to the baby fuss and makes sounds just like a human baby wanting mama to wake up!

http://www.lilycamandchat.tk/

My Hair is in Sorry Shape.....

Ugh....
I look freaking 80 years old. I have not had my hair colored since I think November. My hair stylist is on maternity leave and I have not had a color or cut since. I think my gray grow-out is close to 3 inches. OK....I just measured. I have a 2 inch gray streak on the top of my head. Gross....Seriously....Gross....
I asked my friend Sandy for the name and number for her stylist, but I have not called yet. I keep avoiding it. I don't know why. It's just a hair appointment. It's not a pap smear or something. It's only my stupid hair that looks like crap. I have had the number for a week. But do I make a simple phone call? Nope. I'm even toying with the idea of buying something at the store and just giving myself an all over color. But they I think about all the money I have been spending on getting a color weave only to ruin it with a bad dye job. And then I think about how I have already ruined it by letting my gray grow 2 inches.
I'm just lazy.
I need someone else to make the call and then tell me that my appointment is on such and such day at this hour. GAAAWWWWD.....I need to quit being so lazy and just make the friggen call.
But I don't want too....
arrrrrgh....
I'm cold too.
Just thought I would throw that in.
But I'm also to lazy to plug the space heater in.....
So I sit here freezing.....
My own fault.
blah....
**hehhehheh**

Prey

I was reading this morning about how men have been preying on the children left orphaned in Haiti. This sickens me. Is there no end to children suffering at the hands of predators? Unfortunately no. These men have been trolling the streets of Haiti offering food to starving kids, and then taking them and selling them into slavery or into the sex trade. It's so sickening. Apparently selling children into slavery has been a problem for years in Haiti. Families get so desperate that they sell their kids to be slaves. It's something American's don't want to think about. To know that so much of the world is still totally uneducated and still following the belief that women and children are nothing more than property. It's so horrible. I did not donate money to Haiti. Mostly because I do not believe that the money will not go to a corrupt government....if you can even call what they have there a government. I donated money to UNICEF not too long ago. Mostly I donate to local charities. Where you know where the money goes. It makes you wonder about where all that money is going that was raised at the telethon that was just held. Is it really going to go towards food and shelter? Towards rebuilding cities/towns? Or is a lot of it going to be taken by a few men who say they will decide what happens with it? I feel so uneducated about all of this. Maybe that it just my ignorance in regards to relief efforts.
It's all just too overwhelming.....

Old Friends+Lunch=Good Times!

I had lunch with my friend Jenny today. It was so nice to get away from everything and sit down with her. It was also nice to get away from my problems and listen to hers. Not that I want her to have problems, it was just nice to get away from mine! And I would totally take her problem. Hers was more of a complete pain in the butt kind of problem. And my solution would be the same as hers....screw em. LOL! She asked me how the other kitties have been since Cammy is gone. It reminded me that she had also just put her old kitty down. He was around the same age as Cammy, 19something I think. She was pretty hurt by his passing and was going to wait a while before getting another kitty, but a friend put out a call for people to help him with a kitten that he rescued from the side of a highway. Poor thing. So she took him. Poor thing wasn't hurt, but he does have kitty AIDS. He had some eye problems too, but Jenny took him in, got him all cleaned up and they are going to give him the best home possible. The vet said that they won't know how long he can live with the AIDS, but Jenny said they were already attached to him, so there was no turning back now. I think they gave him something like 7 years. Not sure though.
Anyway.....I had a good lunch!

Crohn's Disease

So my son was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease today. The doctor pretty much said that he has it. They took blood for testing to get an absolute diagnosis, but they are pretty sure that he does. He has just about all of the symptoms of it except weight loss that I have seen. I have researched it online and its not a pleasant condition that's for sure. What disease is? I'm kinda pissed off at the doctor though because he told Bryan that he could eat whatever he wanted, and drink alcohol and stuff. The doctor told him that he just needed to avoid smoking. Ummmm hey asshole, Bryan has NEVER smoked so what caused the flare-up???? I'm pissed can you tell? I think Bryan needs to start keeping a journal of everything that he eats so that when he is feeling crappy he can look and see what it was that he ate, or drank. I think he also needs to join an online CD Support Group so that he can talk to people who have the disease and they can help him out to understand what he is going through, and things that can possibly happen if he does not take care of himself.
Looks like I am going to be doing a lot of research in the coming weeks.

The Day is Done

I can not believe how quickly the day went. I was busy at work, so they day just flew by.
When I came in this morning, we only had power to half the building and no phones or internet. I panicked when I realized that we had no internet. But then I got over it.
Kinda...
We called maintenance and they came by to check it out. Turns out if was PUD problem. First thing the PUD guy said when he got here was that it was not their lines and we needed to have someone check our fuse box in the basement. I told him that they already did that and that the guy saw a split in the line near the next building over. The PUD guy said to have our maintenance guy come back over because he was sure that it was not their problem.
It was their problem.
They turned the power off for another half hour and fixed it.
They do that every time. "It's not our problem." If they would just spend a little time investigating instead of jut dumping the problem on someone else it would save a little time.
But other than that, the day flew by and it is now time to go HOME!

Know any good books???

I want to download some books to my Sony Reader.
Yesterday Mary told me about a good book she has been reading....
"The Private Lives of the Impressionists". It is all about artists such as Monet,Cezanne, Renoir, Degas etc."
I went online and found out that it is available for download to my Reader. But when I got out my Reader, it once again had no power. That is my one complaint about this thing.
It never stays charged. Which makes no sense to me at all.
I'm charging it right now, and hope that I will be able to download the book tonight.
If not....I will try tomorrow.
I have a feeling that I am going to have to download the software to Robert's laptop though.
My computer seems to be blocking all Windows downloads.
Piece of crap.
I really need a new computer.
But I want to save money for another trip to Hawaii.
Relaxation is way more important to me than downloading stuff on a computer.
We'll see......
So if you know of any really good books, let me know!

naps....are just so nice.....

I tooked a nap today. It was great....and muchly needed. I love writing in badish English. It's fun.
I think I will just keep doing it.
I use the word "just" a lot.
Well....I never claimed to have a huge vocabulary or anything like that.
I use the word "well" a lot too.
oh well...
I have not checked my email today.
Have not read any current news.
Guess I better go do that.
I need to read something interesting or inspiring.
Know of anything?

got sidetracked...again....

I was doing some research this morning about what to blog about, and I got interrupted and then sidetracked and forgot until we were sitting at dinner.
Sorry.
We went to Outback.
On Friday night.
We got there at 6:50 and were told it would be a 40 minute wait.
We had gift cards to use, so we decided we would wait it out.
After an hour we went and sat in the bar to eat instead.
What a joke.
We only go there once a year and that's because his brother gives us gift cards every year for that place.
Regardless of the ridiculous wait, dinner was fairly decent.
Although it was spendy, and I was only able to eat half of it.
Which is not a bad thing.
Just means I have lunch already for tomorrow :-)

Coco & Jay

I was listening to Rosie Radio on the way to work yesterday, and she was talking about Jay Leno and Conan O'Brien. I have to say that I agree with everything she was saying. Jay needed to just pack up and leave. To force Conan out so that he can have his old time slot back was wrong to me. She was playing clips of him talking about what went on. He was saying how it was NBC who asked him to go back to 11:30. Yeh OK they did, but you could have said no. Jay was making it seem like it was NBC and he had no choice. Yes you did. You could have said no. I really feel like he stabbed Conan in the back. Do I like the Tonight Show with Conan? No. I didn't like it with Jay either. And I don't care for David Letterman, especially since he came out and admitted to having affairs. That guy always gave me the creeps. Now I know why. I do find Jimmy Kimmel funny. But I don't really watch his show. I kinda wish they would replay Ellen or Oprah or something then. Give me something else to watch. I don't have the dvr in the bedroom, so it won't do me any good to record them to watch at that time. Maybe that is the answer. Upgrade and get the dvr in the bedroom too. It would make things easier with me and hubby. He could watch some of his dvr'd shows in there when he goes to bed. He usually ends up having a dvr marathon on Saturday or Sunday mornings.
I may have to look into that.....

I need a Laugh

It was been one draining sad terrible month.
I need a laugh.
I hope you laugh too.

**Bon & Mary: I responded to your requests yesterday in todays comments**

Thinking of Rick

Rick

April 1970-January 1998

i miss u

we all miss u

:-(

I need a Funny

And this is funny...

http://www.starzbunniestheater.com?bcpid=1885460458&bclid=1137834943&bctid=1566340326

Darn...you can't post the Video here. You will have to use the link.
Enjoy.

Nothing for you today....

I've been tired all day. I just don't want to think, so I don't have anything for you today. It will get better. I need a few days.
I wanted to thank Bon and Adri for stopping by yesterdays blog. Your words helped a lot. Thank You. I got so much support from everyone on Facebook too. It really did help.
I think I am going to go lay down under a warm blanket for a while, and then get ready to watch the Golden Globes.

Camile......

Camile (Cammy) March 20 1990-January 16 2010

She's gone.
That was the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life.
I can't even begin to say how much that hurt.
I know so many of you who have had to do the same thing, and my heart is breaking for all of us.
I have only seen my husband cry like that one other time.
When my brother died.
I hope he doesn't read this because I don't want him to know that I just said that.
But that broke my heart even more.
It was peaceful.
The vet came in and said something about her being such an old kitty and that it was her time. Then he said he was going to give her a shot in her belly and that she would go to sleep. And then she would pass. He quickly gave her the shot and then told me I could sit down and hold her. And I did.
And I broke down.
He left us alone with her and then came back a little while later. I thought she was gone, but he said her little heart was still beating very slowly. After about another minute or so she was gone.
We (Robert, Katie and I) brought her home and I put her on her blanket in a box.
I then got my brothers ashes and sprinkled some on her.
So that she would not be alone.
Rick loved those cats so much.
It was the right thing to do. To put them together.
Their dates are so close. Rick died on January 19th.
I miss him so much.


I miss Baby, Leo, Cleo and now our Cammy Girl.


Our hearts are broken.....

:-(

Tomorrow is the day.
We are putting Cammy down.
I have been going back and forth all day about having made this decision.
I know its the right thing to do, and I know I have been saying the same thing all week.
I'm sure that my doubts are all because I don't want to do it.
And that is selfish.
I don't want to take her in.
I don't want to listen to her cry because she is in the car and I am basically driving her to her death.
I hate it.
Hate it.
Hate it.
Hate it.
I guess this is all part of being a pet owner.
Having to take care of them in the good times, and know when it is time to end the bad.
Why couldn't she have just gone in her sleep?
Because that would have been too easy.
Why should I have it easy?
I know so many people who have had to put their pets down.
I don't want to join them.
I'm just sick about it.
I keep thinking....maybe she can make it to her 20th Birthday in March.
Maybe I should just wait until then.
But then I start thinking about her peeing on the floor.
And not eating.
And struggling when she does eat.
And how it looks so painful when she walks.
Then I know I have made the right decision.
But I don't have to like it......

changed heading

so i changed the heading and the picture yesterday but now i cant get the title to move where i want it to go. ugh...i don't know why this has to be that hard. took me forever again to get the picture from scrapblog to here. i have to send it to photobucket first and then save it to my pictures, then i can upload the picture. what a freaking hassle.
i think i will try to play with it some more.....it will take my mind off all the crap i'm dealing with....
HEY LOOK AT THAT! I FIXED IT!
i also figured out how to save the picture without going to photobucket!

its the small things in life.....

It's Time....

I made the call.
I will be having my old girl Cammy put to sleep this Saturday.
I cried of course.
I was doing fine making the appt until she asked me how Cammy was doing.
Then I lost it.
It's so hard to explain what you have been seeing your pet of 19 years become.
She is just so out of it any more.
She hasn't gotten to where she has lost all control of her bladder, but she doesn't understand how to use her litter box anymore.
She stands next to it and pees on the floor.
Or she steps in it and then pees outside of it.
She tries to eat, but sometimes it sounds like she is choking.
Then she sounds like she is grinding her teeth together. That is horrible. We have no idea what is happening to her when she does that. I wonder sometimes if it is some kind of seizure? It's so awful.
I hate seeing her like this.
This past year has felt like all we have been doing is watching her die.
I know this is for the best.
But it still hurts so so bad.....

just not my week, my month...so far my year....

we are going to have to put cammy down.
do. not. want.
i have been avoiding calling the vet.
i have to work all week, so that means i have to call from there.
and i know i will cry.
i cried like 10 times at work today.
i need to get my shit together.
i can't do that.
then to top it all off...the husband of the agent who passed away came in today with cookies. you see, every time it was this agents time to bring in the meeting treats, she had her husband bake choco chip cookies. and they are awesome. before she died she told her husband that he needed to take care of us at the office and bring us cookies because we all loved them so much. well that made me cry....and it has made me cry every time i thought about it....
will this month ever end.....

Scattered Thoughts.....

I'm going to be working full time for at least the next couple months.
It's extra money.
Maybe I can save enough for a trip to Hawaii in September.
I need to change my background. It's 2010 now....
Sarah Palin has signed with FOX. Go figure.....
I'm going through movie withdrawals.
My eyesight is getting horrible for reading.
I'm going through movie theater popcorn withdrawals.
I wonder what we should have for dinner tonight???
I'm going through peanut M&M withdrawals.
I'm tired.
I want to buy something new, like a nice sweater or something, but I don't want to spend any money.
So I won't do it.
I need to get some MK lotion from Jenny. I'm out.
My nose is cold.
Robert and I talked about Cammy this morning and decided it's time to put her down.
I cried.
Now I don't want to think random thoughts anymore.....

Busy Sunday

Finished putting away Christmas today. It's always so sad, but then the house always looks so much bigger and cleaner! And the feeling of accomplishment is great. Then I made some cookies to send to a friend for her b-day. It's a kind of a joke. She is actually my friends wife, and when they were up for Christmas she was saying how much she liked my spritz cookies. I told her I would send her some for her b-day. Turns out her b-day is this week! So I made her some cookies today. So funny. And I got to use my new Kitchen Aid Mixer! It was awesome! I got out my little book to find out what attachment to use and what speed to use for making cookies. Got it all figured out and then mixed the butter and sugar. I added in the rest of the ingredients and the flour and then turned the machine on to the same speed. Not a smart move.....

I had flour all over the place. All down the front of me, all over the counter. Thank god no one was around. Robert was actually at the store when I had this most brilliant moment. I got it all cleaned up before he got home. But I must say....my new Kitchen Aid Mixer is full of awesomeness!!!!

Birthday Cards

I spent the morning making January B-day cards. Now that I'm done with that, I need to start taking the ornaments off the tree. Time to put them away. So sad....
I would have much rather gone to a movie today.....










Hope your weekend is going well :-)

What a Week......

I'm so glad that it's Friday. You have no idea....
Last night after work I went home and got on the computer for a while. Then I told Robert that I was exhausted and that I was going to go lay down for a while. I fell asleep around 6:30 and did not wake up until 10:18. I jumped on the computer long enough to harvest my farms, and then I went back to bed.
It's been such a shitty week. I came to the office yesterday morning to see that our Admin gal did not show up for work. Some things happened on Wednesday, and she quit. I was so disappointed. I wish she would have just sat down with the owners and talked it out. So I am the only one here. Karen is on vacation this week. So no back up. Yesterday I ate lunch at my desk. They told me to go ahead and turn the phones off today for an hour. It's not a big deal for me to stay at my desk. I don't mind. I'm more concerned about Diane and how she is doing, and the fact that Admin is now a cluster f*ck. I will be working full time until they get someone hired.
I'm just so drained......

brrrrrrrrr......

It's gonna be a cold few days in the Midwest and South. They are calling for -52 degrees wind chill. I can not even imagine what they feels like. How do you even get your house warm when it's that cold? I woman was telling a reporter this morning that her tires were frozen on her car, so the spot on the tires that was touching the ground when they froze was now a flat surface and the rest of the tire was round. So when she drove, the tire stayed flat on that spot so she was bump bump bumping all the way. I just can't even imagine that. I have had water bottles freeze in my car when it's cold. But nothing like the hairs on your face immediately freezing as soon as you step outside.
So I am sending warm thoughts to all my friends in the Midwest and South! Stay warm, stay safe.....

Polar Plunge 01/06/2010

Robert participated in a Polar Plunge this morning....at the buttcrack of dawn! I have watched this but have not heard any of it. No speakers at work. Looks funny though! If you can stick it out, the ending looks hilarious!

My Year in Movies 2009

I just went through the list of movies released in 2009. I have to say this was one of the lowest totals of movies I have seen in years. Out of 417 movies I only saw 35. And there are 30 that I wanted to see but missed. I don't know why we missed so many movies this year. Maybe it's because we had to switch to going on Thursday instead of Friday. Movies typically come out on Friday, so we were having to wait to see them instead of seeing them on the day they were released. I know that seems weird...just go the next week, but we always seemed to miss them. And so many of the movies I wanted to see were being shown in limited release. And I won't go to Portland to see a movie. Or if they were downtown, it was only for a little while and I would miss it. Some never came here at all.
Here is a list of the movies that I did see this year.
Don't judge! I will watch most any genre of movie!
In alphabetical order I give you my movie choices of 2009:

9 (or Nine)
Amelia
Angels & Demons
The Blind Side
Bride Wars
Confessions of a Shopaholic
Earth
Fame 2009
The Hangover
He's Just Not That Into You
The Informant
Inglorious Basterds
The International
The Invention of Lying
Julie & Julia
Knowing
Law Abiding Citizen
Mall Cop
The Men Who Stare at Goats
My Life in Ruins
New in Town
New Moon
Night at the Museum 2
Paranormal Activity
The Proposal
Public Enemies
The Soloist
Star Trek 11
Taken
Terminator 4
The Time Traveler's Wife
Transformers 2
The Ugly Truth
Wolverine
Year One

Weeee....What a list! (dont judge)

And here are the movies that I missed or just came out and have not seen yet:

2012
500 Days of Summer
Adventureland
All About Steve
A Single Man
Avatar
Coco Before Chanel
Couple's Retreat
Disney's A Christmas Carol
District 9
Everybody's Fine
The Fourth Kind
Humpday
The Hurt Locker
I Love You, Man
Invictus
It's Complicated
Jennifer's Body
The Lovely Bones
The Messenger
Pirate Radio
Precious
Push
The Road
Sherlock Holmes
Sin Nombre
Up
Up In The Air
Where The Wild Things Are
The Young Victoria

I think my list of missed movies is so much better than the list of movies that I saw. It's hard to get mom, Katie or Robert to go see the movies that I want to see. So we end up at something like a comedy. So I saw a lot of those this year. Not a lot of big epics this year. And I missed the one period movie that was out, The Young Victoria. I'm not even sure that it was even here. I should check to see when it was released. I will see all of those.
Somehow.....

I had a bad day.....

I had a really bad day today. Bad. I'm so glad it's over. Work is fine. Karen is on vacation so that means that everyone and their mother wanted her. So that means everyone and their mother got me. I worked it out.
But this morning I found out that one of our agents passed away on the 1st from Cancer. She was only diagnosed in April, so she went quick. So very sad.
And then some other things happened that I don't want to talk about here. Can't even talk about it on Facebook either because I have work people on there.
So I will bitch to Robert about it.
Isn't that what I keep him around for????

Happy Birthday Baby Girl

My baby girl is 28.
♥Happy Birthday to my Sweet Baby Girl♥
**i'm sooooooo old**

nuffin

i still need a couple days off.....
i got nuffin.....
so there.....
if you came expecting something.....
sorry......
but i know everyone is busy anyway.....
farming.....

WELCOME 2010!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!